Thanks John, I'm all good now. I took some concrete pills and feel a lot better, I think we all have moments of self doubt and to some degree a form of depression (not that I think I suffer from that). I have however stepped down as club Pres and organiser for Armistice and Taupo events as I feel "stretched".
I think it's about time the club members stepped up and did the hard yards It's really great that they help out on the weekends but I need a break from being the one to go to all the monthly/fortnightly meetings to organise the events.
Don't panic they will still happen and I'll probably be back at the helm next year assuming they don't do a better job organising the events and want to stay on